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遊民畫家泊仔送的畫像,在左圖中白鳥的右下方,就是他自己。

  我想我是一個認真的人,有時候到了嚴肅的地步。還記得剛入小學的第一課就是ㄅㄆㄇㄈ,老師說下週要考,可是一週過去了,我還沒全學會,急得不得了,回家就發燒了,媽媽還得幫我惡補。下星期老師竟然完全忘了考試這回事!而我至今餘悸猶存。
  最近一位好友退休,她在嚴肅這件事上比我更勝一籌,在我們為她舉行的餐會中一絲不苟地討論未來生活的意義,我勸她不必急,不妨先混一混。李豐(寫《我賺了四十年》的那位台大醫師)在電話上聽了我的轉述,大笑道:「你混得怎樣?」我說:「不錯啊!」她卻不以為然:「我聽妳聲音就知道妳還是那樣,說話太快了!」幾十年來她一直勸我慢下來。慢才能品味生活,才能靜攬人生,才能修鍊身心。
  不僅需要調整步調,我也想改變自己的寫作風格,輕鬆一點,閒適一點,更多一點生活,多一點感覺。渴望有自己的部落格,不被字數、時尚、市場、刊物風格、主編好惡綁住。大部分是為自己寫吧,也為了分享,至於未來,就交給上天了。 email: yenlinku@mail2000.com.tw
 

2012-09-17

To Shulie: With Whom It All Began


Shulamith Firestone died last month. http://nplusonemag.com/     
I met Shulie at the National Conference for New Politics, held in Chicago over the Labor Day weekend in 1967. It was an unsuccessful attempt to unite the organized Left behind a presidential ticket that would campaign against the war in Viet Nam. A couple women who were not themselves part of the Left had persuaded the conference organizers to give them some space for a women’s caucus. Black caucuses at such meetings were common and accepted, but one for women was by itself radical.
Shulie was one of about four dozen women who met daily to hammer out a resolution that called attention to women’s issues – equal pay, childcare, abortion on demand and other things that today don’t seem very radical. She didn’t say much, but what she did say stuck in my mind. I would now characterize her views as radical feminism uncontaminated by left-wing rhetoric – something that one didn’t often encounter in those days.

When we took the women’s caucus resolution to the Resolutions Committee we were told that we were too late – the agenda already had a resolution on women and there was time for only one. That resolution was written by Women for Peace, none of whom had attended the women’s caucus; it was about peace, not women. I walked out mad. I probably would have gone home had I not run into Shulie. At first, she didn’t believe what I told her. But after she found out for herself, she was more angry than I.
Individually, neither of us would have done anything, but together we fed on each other’s rage. We decided to propose a substitute resolution when the Women for Peace language was read for discussion before voting the next day. We stayed up all night revising the women’s caucus resolution; the more we talked, the more radical it got.

We printed copies and passed them out. By the time the agenda reached women’s resolution, there were a handful of us standing at the microphone, our hands stretched high, waiting to be recognized to propose our substitute. After reading the "women’s" resolution, meeting chair William Pepper recognized none of us. "All in favor, all opposed, motion passed," he said. "Next resolution."

As we stood there in shock, a young man pushed his way in front of us. He was instantly recognized by the chair. Turning to face the crowded room he said, "Ladies and Gentlemen, I want to speak for the forgotten American, the American Indian." Infuriated at being "forgotten," we rushed the podium.  The men laughed at our outrage. When Shulie reached Pepper, he literally patted her on the head. "Cool down, little girl", he said. "We have more important things to do here than talk about women's problems."
Shulie didn’t cool down and neither did I. We put together a list of every woman we knew who might be interested in working on women’s issues and invited them to a meeting at my Chicago apartment. What came to be called the West Side Group met for seven months. Shulie only stayed a month before moving to New York; her sister Laya took her place in our group.

Shulie took with her the names of some New York women interested in women’s issues and with them founded the first women’s liberation groups in New York.
For the next couple years we stayed loosely in touch. When the Dialectic of Sex was published in 1970, she inscribed the copy she gave me "To Jo: With Whom It All Began."
By 1975, Shulie had faded away. I had to track her down to give her a copy of my first book when it was published that year. Years later I was told by others of her mental illness and its effects, but I didn’t see it myself.

We reconnected for a few years when her next book, Airless Spaces, was published in 1998. She invited several of her old friends to celebrate. She seemed fine, but others told me that she wasn’t.
The last time I saw Shulie was in 2000, at the book party Gloria Steinem hosted for my latest book. Even though they were both early feminists living in the same city, they had never met. Gloria told her how honored she was to meet the author of such an important early feminist book. They hugged, and they talked.
Shulie and I stayed in touch through 2003. Subsequently, I only got voice mail when I called, and no reply to my e-mails. Carol Giardina and Kathy Sarachild kept me apprised of her ups and downs through 2007. The next time I heard about Shulie was when I got the notice of her death.

Thinking back on those years and Shulie’s contribution to the women’s liberation movement, I see Shulie as a shooting star. She flashed brightly across the midnight sky. And then she disappeared.

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